A while ago I started reading about being content in the moment. Being happy right where you are now. “But how is that possible when I have so much that I want to change? When there are so many things that make me unhappy? “ my inner voice would scream. Continue reading
The season of fall has come upon us this week. We are back to the cooler air that requires those comfortable sweaters and warm blankets once again. Scents of casseroles permeate the rooms of my house and the hot chocolate has been pulled out of the cupboard again. Anticipation builds as we look forward to fall colours, apple cider and the privilege of viewing pumpkin patches on a wagon ride.
As the season has changed this week, so has my life. I have entered another stage of life in which I am beginning to live my dreams and once again do things that I want to do (not HAVE to do).
Earlier in the week I started my writing course. Doing something by myself for myself is something rather foreign for me. I would do ANYTHING for someone else, but when it came to doing something for me, I would back up, shake my head and say thanks but no thanks.
I am celebrating the fact that I had the courage to enroll in this course, find my way there on my own and that I faced a group of 20 people I had never met before. Last year at this time I would not have had the courage to take one of these steps, let alone manage the whole string of them.
I have to admit that I did kind of freeze up when trying to introduce myself and tell what I hoped to get out of the course. But, by the time we had written our first piece and separated into groups to share our work, I had gathered up the courage to offer to read my piece first. Not because I thought it was so good. I honestly thought it was horrible. But who writes amazing stuff the first round anyways? I just wanted to push the envelope and not be the last one standing. Jump in and be brave. Something I usually am not. I also offered to do some “extra” work that the course instructor will tear to pieces and place red marks all over…oh, I meant make comments on. He said to leave lots of room for comments. Hmmm am I ready for that? Yep, I sure am. Throw everything at me. I am ready to take any comments to help improve my work and help me grow as a writer.
Yesterday I had an orientation day at work, which was no more than watching some mind-numbing computer videos and being tested at the end of each one. Real work starts next week, and I have to say that I am eager, willing and ready. Nervous as well, but so looking forward to having a life outside of my four walls and doing something for me.
I hope that my life will become as comfortable and full of colour as this season of fall.
How is this new season treating you?
Are you feeling unsatisfied with your life? Is there a nagging feeling that you want or need something more? Yet, you don’t know exactly what that something more is? Do you feel a pull from responsibilities or people in your life that is taking you down a road you are not completely satisfied with?
Every person has a different journey to take in life. We can follow the road forward, making choices of which path to follow when we hit a crossroad, or we can just stop and enjoy the scenery right where we are.
I have done enough sight seeing for a while, thank you very much! As nice as the place that I am at in my journey is, I really need some new scenery in my life. Something fresh that will challenge me and make me feel alive, not like I just exist.
This journey is not a race. We must take our time. It is something to embark upon with a spirit of adventure, and an open mind to find out where we truly want to end up. We must shut out all outside influences and listen to our heart. For in listening to our heart we will connect with our spirit, which will guide us, in which direction we need to go when we are ready to move forward.
If you are at a place in your journey in which you are comfortable, then great! You are at the place you are meant to be at this moment. But, if you feel like something is missing, like you are lost or ambling aimlessly, then quiet your mind. Listen to your heart. Your spirit will guide you. Be patient, because this may take time. But, when the feeling strikes, don’t fight it. Rather, embrace it and take steps in the direction it is guiding you. Continue to listen to your heart as you make each step. If it feels right, then great. If not, then also listen to your heart and change your direction accordingly.
I have taken my first small steps. This week I begin to travel an unknown road in facing the start of a new job and also the start of a writing course. I can never seem to do one thing at a time! I am nervous, excited and full of anticipation as to where this new path will lead. The butterflies in my stomach turn to bats flapping around in there at times, but I know that I will survive this, and come out the better for it.
What point are you at in your journey? Are you just enjoying the scenery, or is your heart leading you forward to a new destination?